i love quotes!

I want to stop like I knew everything..

even though I know what exactly happen..

huh im tired wasting my energy and my feeling about it..

so bye-bye I let it go.. ^^

p/s: this is my quote! tapi x tahu la kalau quote ni ade.. *^

aku di tipu bulat bulat!

kenapa kau berlagak mengenali diriku?

sewenang wenangnya mengembar gemburkan cerita?

bercerita seolah olah semua itu benar belaka?

satu yang ingin aku tetapkan.

kau tidak mengenali aku.

justeru itu berhenti!

tolong berhenti berpura pura mengenali aku!

maaf!

aku tidak dapat mengelakkan rase benci.

ya!

hati ini benci dan tidak percaya lagi.

puas aku percayakan kau.

akhirnya nista yang aku dapat.

moga Allah melindungimu sahabat.

moga kau sedar siapa kau.

moga kau sedar di mana letak duduknya dirimu.

moga kau sempat meminta maaf pada semua..

maaf seikhlas hati.

tiada lagi putar belit!

sahabat hati ini mati untukmu.

tiada lagi berbekas untukmu.

p/s: kini dan selamanya aku x mungkin akan percaya lagi. meski apa pun. bijak berpura pura. maaf? akan aku fikirkan. nanti! dan kepada sepatutnya aku percaya. maafsetulusnyadarisahabatmu. maaf atas sikapku yang melampau.

hati ini

mana baiti nak cerita hati baiti yang sakit ni?
kenapa mereka hanya fikir hati mereka?
hati baiti ni bukan apa apa ke?
kenapa x ade orang yang paham baiti?
baiti x pinta untuk di sayangi atau dilindungi
cuma boleh x jaga hati baiti?
jage sikit pon jadilah..
baiti x minta banyak..
cuma tolong la jangan asyik fikir hati awak awak je..
hati awak je ke yang kene jaga..
baiti x nak buat macam dulu da..
sejuk je x berperasaan..
memang best buat macam tu..
baiti x sakit sikit pon
tapi orang sekeliling baiti yang sakit..
sakitnya hati..
ya Allah tabahkanlah hati ini
kuatkanlah ia..

again n again

Again it is about 2pm.. hee.. yess im a big fan of them.. lately their seem famous among Malaysian girls.. what I can see and realize is there a lot of girls talking about them.. and most of them know 2pm by their song I’ll be back.. also a few month ago taec and woo oppa was staring in dream high drama which being aired at astro kbs..

Act I don’t really like to like something that too famous.. there no fun when everybody knows about them when u ask ‘did u know 2pm?’ if people doesn’t know it seem more fun and excitement..

Well people might like them bcause their are cute, adorable or charming.. or maybe bcause it a trend.. or maybe they had their own reason.. but for me it not that way.. I start to know them early 2009.. which a few month after their debut.. 2pm debut on oct 08.. how I start know them? I was watching star golden bell(if im not mistaken).. then they introduce themselves.. an nyong haseyo 2pm imnida.. I was like owh group baru.. they sit in a row start with taec yeon, woo young, jun ho and chan sung.. yess I still remember.. and of course taec oppa catch my eyes.. bcause he was sitting at the front.. at first I was like poyo gile mamat ni.. but then he smiled.. ah! I fall! Heee.. then I start to google about them and their songs.. mv.. and till now my fav is taec oppa.. but now it already has ‘and’.. and woo oppa! Gyeopta! oppa i like ur cheek and i know it has poison in it.. like u said to jyp.. ^^

Then I found their wild bunny and idol army show.. huh I was like aaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!!! Domo domo chua! (chua tu ejaan die salah rasenye.. hee.. lantak la) siusly korang korang kene tengok variety show tu.. sebab dorang sangat sangat kelakar.. and how they debut through hot blood show..

Semua lagu lagu dorang baiti suka.. 10 point out of 10, again n again, niga mipda, only u, heartbeat, tired of waiting, without u.. ala banyak lagi la.. hee.. tapi baiti paling suka lagu thank you.. lagu tu die tujukan khas untuk hottest.. siape pulak hottest ni? Hee.. hottest ni name fans 2pm.. setiap idol kat korea ade name fans dorang yang tersendiri.. tapi baiti x tahu semua.. yang baiti tahu 2pm, suju and ade la beberape lagi.. kalau korang cari lagu tu cari yang ade eng sub.. baiti terharu sangat dengar lagu tu.. ^^

Tapi kan baiti bukan hottest.. even baiti minat sangat sangat 2pm ni.. sebab kalau hottest baiti mesti beli album album dorang or pergi konsert konsert dorang.. I never done any of that.. ^^ but I also not sasaeng fan.. sasaeng? Ape itu? It a name for fan that follow their idol 24/7.. yup every day and second.. for sure la baiti bukan kan.. jaoh kot korea and Malaysia.. ^^ im a fan that always there to support them.. even when I know jay was terminated(ceh ayat!) from 2pm.. I never say or thought anything about to disbelieve them.. I know what jay do is before their debut.. and I also know it is abit harsh.. but human makes mistake.. I believe it had hikmah behind that.. see right now jay with his own career and 2pm too.. so they trying their best for themselves and fans.. it’s a good thing huh? ^^

Last few month I found a blog talking about 2pm.. siusly sangat sangat harsh.. I don’t know if I need to believe.. bcause I don’t know the real 2pm.. how they in the real life.. so whatever people say I still a fans of 2pm.. ^^ im a fans bcause how they survived the jay issues and of course their songs.. once my lil bro asked my lil sis.. ‘why she like them? They don’t even know that she is a fan’.. then my lil sis ans.. hey im only fans.. I like them not bcause I want them to like me back or to let they know that yuhu im one of ur fans.. it just fun.. hee ^^

Yeah I like them bcause my heart not gonna be hurt.. what the point if I couple with a boy and love him so damn much.. macam orang selalu cakap tu.. hee.. and at last I clash with him? It hurt me a lot.. than bcome a fans of 2pm.. nothing.. they don’t know im a fan and they will not hurt me.. right huh? I know this only worldly matter.. but still I never leave my religion to follow them or leave my parent just bcause want to watch their concert.. im not that crazy.. that’s why I said im not hottest.. im just a big fan of 2pm.. ^^

p/s : 2pm oppa hwaiting!! here a fans that will always support u.. ^^

my past

an nyong! hee.. again i greet u all with han guk.. fine.. assalamualaikum.. ^^

hari ni tiba tiba baiti teringat cerita lame.. ceh nostalgiknye.. heee.. yess im that kind of person.. i believe history make who am i today.. so i cannot forget it.. hee..

This evening I though just want to take a nap.. fine I know its not good.. my ayah always scold me about this.. hee.. but ottoke? I love something that not healthy.. ^^ sambung cerita.. then I dreamed about my past.. something that I really want to forget.. hmmmm? Tadi kamu bilang sejarah itu enggak mungkin dilupakan.. tapi sekarang mahu? Heee.. these past what make who am I today.. a mean person.. lets the story begin..

The story begin when I was in standard 4.. that was long long time ago.. heee.. this guy I know since I was in standard 3.. and it takes 1 year for me to like him.. and since that i always like him.. yup only him.. heee.. and it almost 2 years I like him.. unbelieveable huh? That was the first time and maybe the last time I have ever like a guy so much.. ^^ then I proposed him.. ever u guys doing this? I challenge u guys try it out.. it fun.. but siusly u need a lot of strength.. to face him and surrounding.. he maybe reject u.. like what this mr.R done to me.. or ur friends.. siusly it gonna be a huge gossip in ur school.. everybody will know about this.. maybe even mok cik cleaner pon akan tahu.. ala macam dalam playful kiss.. heee.. every single of my friend asked me.. familiar ques was.. weh awak x malu ke? And I don’t know why this was my answer.. napa pulak saya nak malu? Siti khadijah pon propose kat nabi Muhammad apa.. ceh hebat x? semua kawan kawan baiti cakap.. wow boshita!! Means coolnye.. heee.. im some sort of legend la time tu.. ceh perasan gila.. heee.. tapi baru sekarang baiti tahu laki tu sangat jahat.. memberitahu apa yang perempuan tu rase kat die untuk pengetahuan satu sekolah.. sangat x jujur.. tapi satu la.. lelaki melayu memang biasa macam tu kan.. bagitahu kat semua.. supaya semua cakap wow ade orang admire kau.. hee.. Childish!! ^^

Then I stop to like him.. well at first it was hard.. same school.. almost 12 hours per day I spend with him.. sama sekola kebangsaan and agama.. so it really hard.. but thanx to mr.A for coming in my life.. we start as bestfriend.. very bestfriend! Hee.. then that day come.. the day I fall for him.. it was a normal school day.. mr.A pencil box missing.. then spotcheck dijalankan.. tapi kami sendiri yang check beg sendiri sendiri.. tapi x jumpa.. suddenly this one boy said to me.. cuba check bawah meja awak betul betul.. then baiti pon check la.. yess it was under my table.. am I a thief? Am i that bad? Yess im not that rich but baiti x batak pon dengan barang orang lain.. da cukup ape yang ayah beri kat baiti.. I don’t know who the hell doing that.. at first yeah.. then I find out.. such a b*tch boy! Siusly sampai sekarang baiti x dapat maafkan die.. sebab lepas tu.. I was humiliated by mr.A mom.. she was my English teacher.. she called me to her class.. and yelled at me because of my bad writing.. dia campak buku baiti.. and that’s not enough.. she pinch my stomach.. everybody in that class watching it.. why she so angry while it only a small matter? About my writing? Huh nope! Mr.A is her lovely only son.. such a horrible day.. but i didn’t cry.. then the limit comes.. I can stand it out loud when everybody doesn’t belive me.. but even he doesn’t believe me.. huh! he asked why I did that.. if I want something just tell him.. huh! Am I that low? Then I cried.. I cried a lot.. and I yelled to him.. aku x batak la dengan ko punye pencil box tu.. aku x tahu macam mane bende tu bole ade kat situ.. then baiti kayuh basikal laju laju.. die kejar and pujuk baiti.. esoknye die gaduh dengan budak yang kenekan baiti.. how come I didn’t fall? Pabo? Maybe.. ^^

Start to like him.. then I know he act like my friend.. not only friend.. my best girlfriend! Huh.. but I never said anything aqbout what I feel.. I just support him.. give advices.. telling my friend he such a good boy.. I feel really stupid back then when.. I fought with my girl friend and he asked me to befriend with her back.. and guys I do it.. amazing huh? Yeah I had been fooled by love once.. I know what it feel.. ^^ so tell me about love.. how u hurt by it.. I understand it so much.. well because of mr.R, mr.A and the boy that put mr.A pencil box.. I had been hurting so many heart that sincerely loved me.. miyanae guys.. it happen that way because I were only trying to protect my heart.. I know this way is wrong.. but this is the only way I saw.. ^^

p/s : mr.R want to be my boy that day.. but because he had someone else he needs to reject me.. that what he said.. that boy.. ala the pencil box guy.. he never had courage to look at me till now.. u know u were wrong ryte.. I will forgive u.. but not now, tomorrow or next year.. ^^ mr.A act know what exactly I feel.. but he never ask me about that.. hee.. such an amazing life.. never regret because there no medicine for that.. ^^ have a nice day guys!

i always want a really really good dream
hee
but today,,
it was a bad dream!
im afraid to close my eyes tonight
^^