will not leave u

rather than abandoning someone who is waiting, going there and annoying him is better.
this is because even though someone might want to be alone, but it must be lonely without friends.
yeah i believe in this. if someone that i care so much want to be alone. i would rather beside him or her. well at least to make him or her annoyed. so that him or her doesn't feel lonely.
lonely is a frustrated and depressed feeling. a really really really dangerous feeling. it may lead into many problems. ^*

hati saya sangat resah. minda saya kerap tertanya tanya. siapa saya di hati dia? 

dia sering melayan saya dengan baik dan jujur. tapi ada ketikanya dia lupakan saya.

meski saya punya perasaan pada dia. dia tidak patut buat begitu.

memberi harapan dan akhirnya membiar saya terkapai kapai.

saya benci dia tapi saya suka dia.

saya harap dia pergi tapi saya rindu dia.

saya harap dia tidak wujud tapi tanpa dia saya tidak kenal erti suka dan duka.

notamati: datang dan pergi itu sifatmu. aku mengerti akhirnya.

matahari vs gelap

saya sangat suka kan cahaya. sebab cahaya bantu kulit saya nampak cantik. even xcantik sangat. hee. so saya sangat suka iklan johnson baby lotion tu. hee. 

maybe ramai girls yang takut dengan cahaya matahari. tapi saya tak. tapi saya still takut gelap macam girls lain. so sebab saya suka sangat cahaya. satu satunya cara nak kekal cerah adalah dengan pakai product yang sesuai dengan kulit muka and lotion. hee. so even saya takut gelap saya still boleh have fun with cahaya matahari. yahoo! tehee.

notamati: saya kesusahan hati.

my ideal types.

hello 2012! yeah outdated! ^^

hmm since it a new year i want to have new experience, new hobby, new personality, new dream and new man. why it is man not boy? well this year i'm 21 years old okayh. my heart cant take the fluttering feeling or the butterflies in the stomach anymore. it is not that i dont want to feel that. it just i cant take it when the purpose is for fun like before. this time i want to feel that kind of feeling with all of my heart. and with the only one man. 

well to be honest i had been through those feeling. but never once at a time. why? i also dont know. maybe i dont know how to manage my feeling? well might be. hee

emm this time it gonna be someone that really really really is someone. not the some guy that passing by. i'm older now. yess i admit that with my whole heart. but it doesnt mean that i'm that old. it just i feel it is the right time to feel the molkang molkang feeling. which means i ready to deal, tolerate and open with it. not like the last time i runaway from that kind of greasy feeling. hee. u understand right? the greasy feeling that make ur hand curl. hee.

okayh next is ideal types. want to fall in love there must be a type right? my friends told so. well to be honest i dont have any special types. i like all the good quality. hee. 

eyes?

the eyes that look evil that make u feel afraid to look at, but when u look at that kind eyes there is always had that bright shining thing. it is not that make u feel good. it is something sad. something that he hold for a long time. never told to anybody. somehow u feel lonely by looking at him. u want to ask why?

or this types of eyes. a cold eyes. sometimes u think that u know him soo well and can predict his next step. yet, sometimes he tend to do something that u never thought. too hard to predict yet he is cool and handsome. hee..

hair?

there is only one guy that made me fascinating just by looking at his hair. should i say who is he? well that korean looking guy. i love his hair so much. the best hair ever. that flowy when wind blow. that look so soft when he walking. eung! yeah that kind of hair. he one of the lucky guy to had that kind of hair. hee

lips?

hee. this is the important part. i like the thin lips. maybe i had a big mouth. so i would prefer a thin lips. it look damn cute. eung!

neck?

i love a big neck. sexy!

broad shoulder so he can hug tight and firm!

hand with muscle. so that he looks strong and willingly protect me.

aigoo this is not human. it prince charming. that barely live in this world. ^^

personality?

someone that willingly do a small small thing for me. someone that patience to deal with my annoying girly thing. well that all i think. molla.