=)

one of the biggest flattery is
knowing that just by being your normal silly self
you made someone fall in love with you

>..<

memory makes me wonder ^^

my ate michiko sent me a text just now..

"hey kawan! hargai lah mereka yang menyayangi mu.. jangan menyesal seperti aku"

that advice made me cry so much.. lately i've been feeling lost.. i wonder why? hmm bcause my gem gem not here? or my best chingu not here? or i'm missing someone soo much? argh molla! i really hate this feeling.. i feel uneasy and sensitive.. yeah! if something doesnt happen the way i want.. i cried so much..

like that text.. the word menyesal make me.. hmmm remember someone.. the text is refering to mr daim.. hmm choc daim.. but the word menyesal made me though about somebody else.. hmm who? i think i love him so much.. and that the reason why i hurt so much.. the day we spent together is something that i treasure so much! and the second that he hurt me.. i will never forget.. he meant a lot for me..

because of that second i take almost a month to forgive him.. that the other second come.. and another second.. i think only 3 second.. it takes me 2 years to forgive and not to forget.. if people say it feel like a knife stabbed in ur heart.. for me its not.. it feel like a broken glass is scratch all over my heart.. and the broken glass remain there.. then the glass will never leave my heart.. hmm to make sure that i didnt forget it..

that what i thought.. tehee.. now we become best friend.. and my feelings? sometimes i forget i was being hurt by him.. and now forget is something i need? nooo! he was hurt by me too.. so we kinda competing with each other.. hey darl i hope u have a beautiful relationship with her.. hey no matter how busy u arewith ur own life.. i know i am in ur heart.. why i'm so sure? because i were there before and it gonna remain there foerever.. it my promise.. remember? tehee<3

p/s; ate daim is someone that loves me so much but he is control maniac! urgh freaky?! my second bff i write my name there with my own blood so it will never erased by anybody except me.. freaky? theat ur punishment for hurting me last 4years!! <3

hopes

hmm missing my lil sis so damn much.. that what i can conclude now.. my life is kinda messy right now.. i wake up late and awake till late night.. one sentence please! life is soo great to be regret and enjoy it babe! yeah!

aaarrggghhh!! wahai semangat datanglah kepadaku!! aku amat memerlukan kamu saat ini.. ^^