will not leave u

rather than abandoning someone who is waiting, going there and annoying him is better.
this is because even though someone might want to be alone, but it must be lonely without friends.
yeah i believe in this. if someone that i care so much want to be alone. i would rather beside him or her. well at least to make him or her annoyed. so that him or her doesn't feel lonely.
lonely is a frustrated and depressed feeling. a really really really dangerous feeling. it may lead into many problems. ^*

hati saya sangat resah. minda saya kerap tertanya tanya. siapa saya di hati dia? 

dia sering melayan saya dengan baik dan jujur. tapi ada ketikanya dia lupakan saya.

meski saya punya perasaan pada dia. dia tidak patut buat begitu.

memberi harapan dan akhirnya membiar saya terkapai kapai.

saya benci dia tapi saya suka dia.

saya harap dia pergi tapi saya rindu dia.

saya harap dia tidak wujud tapi tanpa dia saya tidak kenal erti suka dan duka.

notamati: datang dan pergi itu sifatmu. aku mengerti akhirnya.

matahari vs gelap

saya sangat suka kan cahaya. sebab cahaya bantu kulit saya nampak cantik. even xcantik sangat. hee. so saya sangat suka iklan johnson baby lotion tu. hee. 

maybe ramai girls yang takut dengan cahaya matahari. tapi saya tak. tapi saya still takut gelap macam girls lain. so sebab saya suka sangat cahaya. satu satunya cara nak kekal cerah adalah dengan pakai product yang sesuai dengan kulit muka and lotion. hee. so even saya takut gelap saya still boleh have fun with cahaya matahari. yahoo! tehee.

notamati: saya kesusahan hati.

my ideal types.

hello 2012! yeah outdated! ^^

hmm since it a new year i want to have new experience, new hobby, new personality, new dream and new man. why it is man not boy? well this year i'm 21 years old okayh. my heart cant take the fluttering feeling or the butterflies in the stomach anymore. it is not that i dont want to feel that. it just i cant take it when the purpose is for fun like before. this time i want to feel that kind of feeling with all of my heart. and with the only one man. 

well to be honest i had been through those feeling. but never once at a time. why? i also dont know. maybe i dont know how to manage my feeling? well might be. hee

emm this time it gonna be someone that really really really is someone. not the some guy that passing by. i'm older now. yess i admit that with my whole heart. but it doesnt mean that i'm that old. it just i feel it is the right time to feel the molkang molkang feeling. which means i ready to deal, tolerate and open with it. not like the last time i runaway from that kind of greasy feeling. hee. u understand right? the greasy feeling that make ur hand curl. hee.

okayh next is ideal types. want to fall in love there must be a type right? my friends told so. well to be honest i dont have any special types. i like all the good quality. hee. 

eyes?

the eyes that look evil that make u feel afraid to look at, but when u look at that kind eyes there is always had that bright shining thing. it is not that make u feel good. it is something sad. something that he hold for a long time. never told to anybody. somehow u feel lonely by looking at him. u want to ask why?

or this types of eyes. a cold eyes. sometimes u think that u know him soo well and can predict his next step. yet, sometimes he tend to do something that u never thought. too hard to predict yet he is cool and handsome. hee..

hair?

there is only one guy that made me fascinating just by looking at his hair. should i say who is he? well that korean looking guy. i love his hair so much. the best hair ever. that flowy when wind blow. that look so soft when he walking. eung! yeah that kind of hair. he one of the lucky guy to had that kind of hair. hee

lips?

hee. this is the important part. i like the thin lips. maybe i had a big mouth. so i would prefer a thin lips. it look damn cute. eung!

neck?

i love a big neck. sexy!

broad shoulder so he can hug tight and firm!

hand with muscle. so that he looks strong and willingly protect me.

aigoo this is not human. it prince charming. that barely live in this world. ^^

personality?

someone that willingly do a small small thing for me. someone that patience to deal with my annoying girly thing. well that all i think. molla.

so outofdate!

assalamualaikum..

hmm apa yang out date ni baiti? well hari ni nak cerita or share something that i thought.. and learned from my daddy! ^^

please flush after use it.. hmm apa yang perlu flush lepas kita guna dia? korang semua mesti tahu apa kan? tandas!

adik lelaki baiti sangat susah flush tandas lepas guna.. kadang kadang tu baiti tanya die.. patah ke tangan tu kalau flush tandas? baiti marah dan geram.. satu hari tu baiti marah dia in front of my daddy.. and he got scold.. then he flush.. after that he forgot again..

aigoo! nak tahu apa ayah baiti cakap dekat my lil bro tu.. "orang x ade tamadun je yang lepas berak x flush.. tahu?" wow sangat pedas dan bernas! i like!

baru puas rasanya bila ayah baiti tegur dia.. tapi memang betul apa yang ayah baiti cakap.. kita kan da ada tamadun.. sebab tu orang cipta flush.. untuk kemudahan kita.. x perlu lagi jirus jirus macam dulu.. tapi semua anggap flush tu hanya hiasan kat dalam tandas.. ish ish sangat x bertamadun..

ada sekali tu baiti dekat tandas awam.. tunggu giliran nak masuk.. sekali perempuan yang keluar dari tandas memang pergh gorgeous la.. dressup pun class gitu.. sekali bila baiti masuk tandas.. hmm x berflush.. rasa macam nak je suruh die masuk balik dan flush.. and tanya x baca arahan yang dia bagi ni ke?

kesimpulannya.. mereka mereka yang x suka flush tandas lepas guna ni sangat sangat outofdate and x cool! ^^

deathnote ; jadi mari la kita sama sama menjaga kebersihan tandas awam.. ceh macam iklan kat tv le pulak.. ^*

kecik kecik dolu!

assalamualaikum! apa khabar semua?!

teruja sungguh saudari ya?! ya saya sangat teruja.. sebab hujan hujan ni kene teruja lebih sikit.. kalau x kesejukan nanti.. dan disebabkan keterujaan inilah.. cewah ayat nat power je brader.. hee.. tetiba sahaja baiti teringatkan kisah silam.. haha.. kisah silam tersebut menusuk hingga ke kalbu.. hee..

kisah silam ini bermula dari baiti berumur hmm lebih kurang 8 or 9 tahun macam tu la.. waktu waktu umur macam ni biasanya perempuan da baligh kan.. or lebih specific da ade rase malu yang tahap shy shy cat.. kan kan? tapi baiti belum lagi lah! kenapa pula ye? meh mari kita dengar ceritanya..

masa umur macam ni biasanye la kan budak budak perempuan akan duduk dekat rumah dan belajar memasak dengan ibu masing masing.. macam sorang ni yang merangkap jiran sebelah rumah baiti.. name die nik farina aishah.. memang cantik lah kan.. kalau mak mentua tengok aish jatuh hati la.. belom anak anak laki dia orang tengok lagi.. hmm x tahu la jatuh ape la pulak kan.. jatuh rahang rahang mereka agaknye.. hee.. dia ni memang princess la.. duduk je dalam rumah.. tolong ibu die buat kerja, memasak lah.. macam macam la.. memang perempuan mithali.. baiti pulak buat ape?

macam biasa la.. bangun mesti la pagi pagi kan.. sekarang je x tahu nape suka sangat bangun lambat.. heee.. then sarapan, ushar tv( dulu x main la panggil ushar kan kita kata tengok tv la ^^ ).. start pukul 11 tv da jadi boring.. ape die siarkan ni.. bosan betul la.. itu lah kata kata cik baiti kita yang kecik.. then mula la teringat ikan ikan kat longkang belakang rumah yang berteriak memanggil baiti.. "mari la tangkap aku kalau mampu!" kata ikan.. heee.. then terdengar pulak teriak rakan rakan seperjuangan memanggil kroni kroni kami untuk lumba basikal.. hmmp mana boleh dorang je yang enjoy.. dengan langkah kanan baiti keluar.. terdengar pulak emak berteriak "hah nak kemana pulak tu?!".. apa lagi zoom pecut la.. nanti x boleh keluar.. ^^

dari lumba basikal baiti ke pertandingan tangkap ikan.. lepas tu lawan siapa dapat menyelam paling lame.. sampai la pukul 5 petang.. lepas tu macam biasa la brader.. main baling selipar ka, lumba lari ka.. yang pasti yang lasak lasak la beb.. apa barang main lompat getah.. eiiyuw feminim nye! haha.. itulah baiti.. paling best sekali korang penah main ape? kalau baiti mestilah besbol! tu memang top la kat sini.. baiti ni boleh dikatakan penah cuba semua posisi tau.. baling bola, pukul bola, tangkap bola? ala benda kacang la beb.. orang semua gigit jari tau dengan kehebatan baiti.. (ceh berlagak betol minah ni padahal lari sekejap da semput, okayh tipu ! ) siapa x nak amek gua jadi geng die? cer cita?! gua top list la antara 3 orang pertama di choose.. dari pukul sampai ke lari gua no hal punya.. hee..

sampai umur baiti form 4 baiti still main besbol tau.. tapi bila da besar sikit nih da x ade la tangkap ikan or main selam selam ni.. hee.. bukan malu tapi geng da x ade.. korang korang pulak macam mane zaman membesar? happening x macam baiti? ^^

deathnote ; tapi kalau kita tengok la budak budak zaman sekarang.. hmm keluar peluh sikit dia orang cakap euyuw peluh! macam makhluk asing je peluh tu.. aish memang x fun la dorang ni.. lagi satu kalau boleh nak duduk depan tv berjam jam tengok kartun.. x pon main ps3.. pergh x awesome langsung! pastu statistik budak budak obesiti pon meningkat.. hmm hmm x sihat betoi.. baiti cakap macam ni sebab adik adik baiti pon macam tu.. hmm xtau nak cakap apo lagik.. ^^

justeru itu penuhi lah hidup anda dengan aktiviti aktiviti yang sihat lagi adventure! yihaaa!

the right person?

i read this sentence somewhere
and though that
ahh it supposed to be that way

"marriage is not supposed something
that to find the right person to marry
it is about to make it right
for your other half
after the marriage"

from what i understand is
the person that complete the missing you
the ideal type that you want
if he/she doesnt complete you
then what is the purpose your marriage is?

deathnote ; finding your ideal type is easier than the right person for you.. hmm sometimes he/she is standing beside you.. but you ignore or didnt notice it.. ^^

UIA PJ

yeah i need to admit this.. i miss UIA! so damn much!! there a lot of memories.. even not all the memories is happy.. ^^

the first moment i know i'm going to UIA.. i was too excited maybe.. but i said these to myself

"whatever how it going to be accept it and go through it like a girl that know what is life!"

cool huh? ceh start to over yourself again.. ^^

the first person i know is my roommate, nabila.. hmm she kind of sad at that time.. then i know she doesn't want to enter UIA.. but was forced by her aunt.. poor girl.. ^^ she is a great friend and roommate.. it just she online alot.. hee..

then i know my BFF.. miss ate michiko.. at first sight she look hmm silent mode.. hee.. then as i'm getting to know her.. she is a biatch! hee.. biatch doen't mean bad okay.. hmm it a specific word.. hee.. the best friend ever i had?

classes in UIA? hmm awesome! i love the surrounding and friends.. munirah, nik, yaya, kak sham, fat.. ala kalau nak sebut satu satu esok pon x habis .. ^^

but even the surrounding and friends are awesome.. i didn't study well too.. why? i don't know.. hee.. people might says i study.. but i know myself better right.. for me study means reading + understand + remember.. what i did was reading and remember.. and it just for the sake of exams.. yela study last minute kan.. ^^ then my result is nothing to be proud of..

deathnote ; hey baiti fighthing!

Beast

i'm in love with Fiction!

i'm in love with yoseop oppa voice!

yeah i'm talking about that famous idol group

BEAST

how i start to follow them?

ask yoseop oppa ^^

in this song i love yoseop(90) oppa voice

it the BEST! jeongmal jjang!

du jun(89) oppa part hmm love it!

junhyung(89) rap fascinating!

i love the uniqueness dongwoon face.. ^^

gikwang(90) and hyunseung(89) just hmmmmmm.. hee

how i heard about this song?

of course my lil sis.. she love them so much!

if u want to hear it, on your radio

it the top played in ERA.FM..

deathnote ; are they beating my 2pm oppa? no! before this i hate them so much.. why there is a need to have other beast group while my 2pm oppa is struggling to rise up.. hhmmpp!!! so i hate them so much.. hee miyanae! i watch their variety show and it can't beat my wild bunny and idol army 2pm oppa.. and du jun oppa is actually in hot blood which is he trying to debut as oneday.. but he disqualified.. then he debut as beast.. ^^ so at the end i love both.. it just i more to 2PM! of course right.. ^^

Eng Sub | Super Junior - Mr Simple MV [HD]

i love this new song
what word should i use
to describe it?
hmmm fresh!
yes that the right word

i love the dress up
i love the hairstyle
i love the dance
and i love u guys more!! ^^

my fav lee teuk oppa : i love his hair, looks like dragon ball ^^
dong hae oppa : amazingly cute ( as always )
sung min : hey boy u look damn manly in here, i like!
ryeo wook : oppa saranghae!
si won : oppa look hmm naughty and gangster hii
ye sung : i love oppa hairstyle, it daebak! jeongmal jjang! ^*
kyuh hyun : oppa look skinny and more matured than before
hee chul : hey cinderella hee u look hmm one word stunning!
eun hyuk : i like oppa short and black hair more but u look alot different and u look cool with it!
shin dong : as usual oppa is my lil sis fav, so i cant comment anything ^^

[JPN + ROM + ENG] [MV] 2PM - I'm Your Man

second song of 2pm
japan style
the first one is TAKE OFF
and i like this more ^^

your words

"reminiscing about the past
i will do it alone
you don't need to do that
you are supposed to be hopelessly
cheerful and sturdy
are you trying to drum up pity?

a hundred times a day
thausand of times
i resent it and resent it even more
why did i meet you
why did it have to be you
you make me resent and blame myself
you are someone who make me regret
you are like nightmare that i dont want to remember

didn't i tell you go back to the time
you didn't know me
go back and meet a man that better than me
and live happy life everyday
forget a punk like me and live happily
please live that way!"

when u said those words outloud
you look heartless and cruel
i want to hate you for the rest of my life

but why?
tell me why your eyes says differently
pitiful
that what it says

p/s: in love with you!

=)

one of the biggest flattery is
knowing that just by being your normal silly self
you made someone fall in love with you

>..<

memory makes me wonder ^^

my ate michiko sent me a text just now..

"hey kawan! hargai lah mereka yang menyayangi mu.. jangan menyesal seperti aku"

that advice made me cry so much.. lately i've been feeling lost.. i wonder why? hmm bcause my gem gem not here? or my best chingu not here? or i'm missing someone soo much? argh molla! i really hate this feeling.. i feel uneasy and sensitive.. yeah! if something doesnt happen the way i want.. i cried so much..

like that text.. the word menyesal make me.. hmmm remember someone.. the text is refering to mr daim.. hmm choc daim.. but the word menyesal made me though about somebody else.. hmm who? i think i love him so much.. and that the reason why i hurt so much.. the day we spent together is something that i treasure so much! and the second that he hurt me.. i will never forget.. he meant a lot for me..

because of that second i take almost a month to forgive him.. that the other second come.. and another second.. i think only 3 second.. it takes me 2 years to forgive and not to forget.. if people say it feel like a knife stabbed in ur heart.. for me its not.. it feel like a broken glass is scratch all over my heart.. and the broken glass remain there.. then the glass will never leave my heart.. hmm to make sure that i didnt forget it..

that what i thought.. tehee.. now we become best friend.. and my feelings? sometimes i forget i was being hurt by him.. and now forget is something i need? nooo! he was hurt by me too.. so we kinda competing with each other.. hey darl i hope u have a beautiful relationship with her.. hey no matter how busy u arewith ur own life.. i know i am in ur heart.. why i'm so sure? because i were there before and it gonna remain there foerever.. it my promise.. remember? tehee<3

p/s; ate daim is someone that loves me so much but he is control maniac! urgh freaky?! my second bff i write my name there with my own blood so it will never erased by anybody except me.. freaky? theat ur punishment for hurting me last 4years!! <3

hopes

hmm missing my lil sis so damn much.. that what i can conclude now.. my life is kinda messy right now.. i wake up late and awake till late night.. one sentence please! life is soo great to be regret and enjoy it babe! yeah!

aaarrggghhh!! wahai semangat datanglah kepadaku!! aku amat memerlukan kamu saat ini.. ^^

[110626] HD | 2PM - Like A Movie + Hands Up [Inkigayo Comeback Special S...

[M/V] 2PM "HANDS UP" from HANDS UP

new song,, new style and new beat!! but the same group!!

who is that? it 2PM!!
yeah they back with their new album.. the second album..
and i fall in love again and again!!

i love the music
i love the outfit
i love them so much!
so guys let party!!
put ur hands up!!

their comeback is this friday (cant wait to see their lives).. 24 june 2011.. and it beacome more special because it nichkhun birthday!! saengil chukahae oppa and good luck 2pm oppa!! fighthing!^^

deal or no deal

it's hard to compete with your guy first love right? especially the really really good one.. well something like wow awesome! huh! ^^

for me it not that hard.. hehe.. sounds like i used to deal with it? haha.. no la.. the thing that makes it harder is.. urself! why urself?

well u the one that doesnt belive in him.. doesnt believe in urself.. yeah it true it hard to believe in guys loyalty.. somehow u the one with him right now not 'she' that first love.. eventhough she always reminds u about how great their first love..

huh?! like i care.. but it gonna be bad also if u pretend that u okay.. because ur relationship will never okayh! so have a talk with him.. ask him from heart to heart.. nice idea? of course! tehee..

well i never dealt with this first love thing guys.. but i had been someone first love.. am i proud? well yeah of course!! how i cant? because he also my first love.. u know something like butterflies in ur stomach.. hee.. i'm not going to tell about him today.. maybe tomorow.. or the next day.. ^^

girls when u have something to dealt with ur boys.. first thing first is calming urself.. no calm no talk.. is just gonna be a cat fight or maybe third world war.. who know? ^^ second thing is let learn being a good listner of explanation.. then being rational in thinking.. easy? not so easy babe.. believes me.. ^^

past and future

u must let go the past
so that the future can comes into it place

really? then if u cant then the future is not a future? it not going to become a good future maybe? or ur life is in danger? ^^

is not easy to let go the past.. well it is easy when u are saying it.. but to be done.. hmm not that easy.. maybe it gonna to hurt u and people around u..

past can be happy and sad.. if it sad we need to let it go? if happy not? how about that happy moment is something that gonna hurt someone else?

hmm life is not easy.. but living is so much fun and amazing to let it past.. ^^

matrik?

finally i'm here.. well again.. after a few weeks gone.. hee.. just need time to settle down my last day at cfs iium.. i think that the best ever path that i choose? hee.. what up guys? having fun during the semester break? me? huh look like it gonna be a bit boring..

why? and why? well i supposed to have fun this break with my luvly gem gem.. having a cup of cofee? (oh classy! ).. or maybe dancing OH! by snsd ( siusly it is amazingly alot easier than i thought).. but it turns out NOT! my luvly lil is now gone tooo? i think a bit far from me.. because i was forced not to visit her..

then again.. why and why? hee.. the big head of the instituition that she belong to right now strictly prohibited us( the family member ) to visit her.. well where is the instituition?

kolej matrikulasi melaka.. at first when i know she got there.. woah! i love it.. it gonna be awesome! yeah and it turns out fascinating in her life now.. u know melaka is a big state now.. so i thought when she got there.. i'll be visiting her right? so it maybe turns out into a vacation? wow! who knows? tehee..

act the important thing is i'm proud of her.. well not just because this reason.. but because who she is.. why did i say this? during my time ( ceh start to talk like u so much older? ) when i heard the word matrikulasi.. wow! sound like awesome and harsh.. well i mean awesome in other way of saying like 'awesome' ( with hands).. tehee.. dont u feel the same way? for me matrik sound hard and no fun? yeah that what i feel.. thank God iium choose me as one of their student.. ^^ i proud that she choose something that she never thought.. and how hardworking she is to get it..

it because at first she doesnt got any offer to further her study.. she cried.. a lot actually.. well eventhough she doesnt tell me.. i know her feeling very very well.. i've been through exactly the same thing.. u know when everybody says.. 'u deserve this because u dont study'.. HAHA! like u know me better? huh! so she stand up for what she believes.. which is second chance? then there she is.. at the matrik.. i'm proud of u babe!

p/s: babe when u home i'm going to cook something special for u and fighting.. and well if there any grammar mistake.. can u help me? hee.. ( band 3)